In the Midst of Preparing for exams part 2

Taking a break from studying physiology so here I am..=) it's so annoying how we have such little time to study..hate the fact that classes are still on and it's already near exams..sigh I can't fully blame the system though cos I procrastinate alot too..which sucks big time..hehe..

anyhoo, today we saw pwetty pwetty rainbows...just wondered to myself how amazing God's creation is n be reminded of his promises =) credits to KK for the photo below. stole it frm his fb page hahah

In the Midst of preparing for exams part 1

I have a feeling I'll blog more during exams cos
a) the laptop is just right in front of me while I'm studying (I know it's not a very smart thing to do hehe)
b) I noticed I come online more often during exam period
c) process of de-stressing myself?

so yeah, hence the part 1...

Having russian intensive control tomorrow..yipee finally free from intensive classes. had 2 years of boring intensive classes..omgosh I'm so glad it's finally overr...having to sit through 4 hours plus of russian classes every week n on top of that another extra 3 hours of intensive russian classes, imagine how torturing is that..

anyway mummy's bday coming soon!! hmmm..wondering how will she be celebrating it..

Luncheon for the 6th years

Today we had some luncheon for the 6th years who are leaving this year at some fancy hotel..it was nice..all of us had fun taking photos, signing our so called autographs on their pressies given by pastor dave and his family.. the food was ok..had my 1st beef tongue which tasted like a normal beef meat..I dun think it was beef tongue though cos it wasnt as chewy as how ppl said it would be..but oh well all in all i had a nice time..

Im starting to like vintage clothing. Went to Bershka n saw a really nice vintage- like dress..I dont think many ppl would like it tho cos it may appear ahma-ish to them bt I don't know why I really like it alot. So I decided to buy it n oh yes it cost a bomb..my mom is so gonna kill me if she knows how much i'm paying for that dress..Sadly I fell into temptation n i bought that dress..so i wore it to the luncheon today..hehe



the dress sort of look like this..

sigh...gonna miss tau tau ,jo n candy espescially tau tau who has been such a blessing to many...she helped to build up the cf n has done so much..she's such a caring person..she helped me through my toughest time..even though i wasnt close to her, she was the 1st to lend a hand during my helpless moment. Indeed she inspired me alot to be a better person. Im forever grateful for what she has done in my life. =)

exams are coming soooooooon sighh...n I havent started a thing yet!! crap..so gonna suffer the night b4 exams as usual..time to pump myself up with lots of caffeine agn n cutting down my long hours of sleep..sighh..

anyhoo these past few days have been wondering alot bout something..it seems that everytime i start to open my heart to someone, in the end i might just get hurt..i know it's cliche but it's true. sometimes I wish I have the right answers..

Just Because

Just because I drink doesnt make me a bad person..just because I go to clubs at times to have a good time with my friends or held drinking sessions in my room occasionally doesnt mean Im sleeping ard with ppl..sigh sometimes it's so frustrating when ppl are being very judgemental about u..how shallow could one be..I thought I could leave all these behind me but I cant..or probably cos Im not in a best of mood right now.. I admit I had done things which Im not very proud of but Im only human..

If you'd know me better, you would not come up with conclusions like that ..!#$#$%$%%&*#$%%^$% anyway I feel slightly better after ranting here..

oh btw, would like to congratulate aaron kong! Im so happy for you and tau tau! Such a blissful news! Indeed u guys look cute together =)

ReUniOn =)

Since I got lots of time to spare so I decided to blog..hmm..it has been about a month since my dad went..I admit it stills overwhelms me whenever i think about it. At times I just wish I could turn back time and spend more time with him..Sometimes I just wish it was all a dream..I miss my dad so badly.. I know it's definitely harder for my mom because she has to wake up every morning to an empty bed..

Have been keeping myself busy with online vids, studies ( still gt 2 more controls to catch up sigh) , cf n practicals.. exams are comin soon n in no time i'll be back in msyia..so cant wait! =) my two besties sarah and audrey will be back by then..finally get to see both of them after so so long... so much catching up to do with them.. =D I just realised how time passes so fast..It has been almost 3 years since i left high sch and omgosh I havent seen audrey for almost 3 years! lol.. oh n not forgetting winnie who will be back at the same time too!! yipeee..indeed it's gonna be 1 hell of a reunion! =)))

was browsing thru my lappie n found this old pic of all of us during our last day of high sch..man we look so young n small lol..not saying im big now or anything but we all look damn young..lol..

A sincere note of appreciation =)

Anyway just want to say a huge big thank you to becky, shanu, tau tau, justin, darsh, rhun ping, aaron, jack, david, anna, johan, mohnika, moscow ppl, jo, micheal and Every1 who helped me thru this really tough time.. be it ur msges, wishes, condolences, prayers,visits or sending me all the way to moscow for abt 11 hrs (to n fro..u guys must be really tired) or buying/cooking food for me or booking my airplane ticket( gosh never knew it was so difficult juz to get a last minute ticket) or calling the deans to help me get my visa on a sunday or just being by my side when i feel so helpless =)..Thankz guys for all these..Im forever grateful to God for giving me frens like u guys ..

This 1 week has been tough bt I noe I wouldn't be able to make it if it wasn't for God's strength n love..I was surprised I was quite strong throughout the whole time (thankz to all ur prayers n everything =) ) ..me n my family have been surrounded by caring n loving relatives n friends these past few days n for that we're forever grateful =) ..this whole week I got to learn more bout my dad by looking thru his files n the things he kept n frm testimonies given by my dad's friends..all these just makes me miss my dad more..indeed as many had said my dad is a man of a few words n he helps ppl in his own quiet way..when we lost someone, then we will only start to appreciate them and realised how that person had really impacted your life in ways you don't know.

Thank you daddy for everything you have done for the family. Indeed you have been a responsible father and son and a really kind friend to many..Im forever grateful for God for giving you to me as my daddy. I love you lots n I know you're in heaven now with the Lord =)

The little things in life

the day my mum told me my dad has 4th stage cancer, it totally change me on how I see things now..all the little details n memory I have with my dad became so precious to me.. the time my dad brought me out to buy me a new pair of shoes, the time I was pissed at him for picking me late frm sch, the time he took me the shopping mall, the time he bought my fav biscuits...all these little memories I hold them very dearly now..

It pains me when I thought about how my dad have to go thru so much pain in chemo n radiotherapy..It pains me when my mum still hav to go to work frm morning till evening n thereafter to take care of my dad the whole night in the hospital..it pains not being able to see my dad when I'm here in Russia.. It pains me even more not being able to hear his voice cos he's too weak to talk..

How I just wish Im back home now by my family's side. Oh Lord, all I'm asking for is time and strength for me and my family...