It has been 6 months or so since my dad left. I miss him so much..Every now and then I still think about him and it hurts knowing that I can't hug or talk to my dad anymore.. it hurts whenever I thought about the fact that I wasn't there at my dad's side when he was sick the whole time..Sometimes it scares me to think that memories of my dad might fade away. I'd rather feel the pain and choose not to let go just to keep those memories alive. I love you, daddy...

Colours of Raya

This weekend was not bad =) . We had raya open house in front of 3rd hostel. 2 thumbs up (Y) for the commitee for organizing the raya open house. Finally I got to wear my baju kurung which was made 2 years back. Never really had the guts to wear it out before during all those years of raya celebration because the baju kurung feels like a dinner wear with all the sequins on it. But when BeekyC told me she's wearing her baju kurung which contain sequins too, I was like oh yeay!!! =D I don't look so stupid wearing it alone now lol..



Adli came with his rockstar look haha..



I just had to take a photo with adli's glasses cos it looks funky (Y) lol



Yuan decided to come with his mismatched look..haha..indeed the colours of raya! lol



The 2 lovelies bought their gorgeous looking kebaya in Bandung, Indonesia and guess what they got 1 for me too! yipee!!gonna wear it for next year's raya =D  ..thanks ShaNu and DaNu! <3

summer loving =)

hmmm..haven't been logging into my blog for a month plus or so..anyway Im back in the land of vodka..Overall summer was awesome!! Met new people and get to hang out with Lynnie and ass-me (my 2 summer buddies) before they left for the States..Im so jealous of them cos they get to go NYC  =( pftt...

Was in Havana most of the time when I was back in summer..A nice and friendly place I'd say..hopefully it's still there when I go back the next time around lol..if not me and Ass-me have to find a new hangout spot again..Always love summer breaks cos there's a different story everytime I go back..But all these stories don't have an ending. At the end of the summer there will be a big question mark. And I hate it when I'm left hanging like that..then again part of me know It's bound to happen that way..

Anyhoo here are some snippets from summer with my darling friends =) ..Satang Island, core, Junk, Havana and more Havana lol..

deb's last night out in Kuching b4 she leaves to oz

                                           

haha..deb's perfect woman signature pose for 2010

                                         

joey manage to fit all of us in the photo (Y)..we all look so happy

                                  

love this photo! <3

                                                              

baby turtle!!!so cute! I'll be fined rm50 000 I think if that poor turtle dies in my hand or if I steal it O_o

 

I remembered waiting till 12 am for this turtle to come ashore but it was so worth it..=)

joey happily slurping on his pina coloda

At K-box with lynnie, Ass-me and Tizi

hahhaah...was at ass-me's house at 2am till 7am just talking the night away with lynnie..good times =)

love this photo cos they're acting dumb and spontaneous inside lol

esme's farewell with old school mates =)

had the best time in KL shopping with mummy, aunty yen and Cheryl =D

A Beautiful Exchange =)

This song is in the new 2010 hillsong album. Heard the song a few weeks ago but never really listen to the lyrics until I googled it just now..and the lyrics are just BEAUTIFUL =) .Few days ago Pastor Amos prayed over me and he said I was recently disappointed and I need to come back to God..and yeap it's true.. this song somehow just came at the right time =)

You were near
Though I was distant
Disillusioned I was
Lost and insecure

Still mercy fought
For my attention
You were waiting at the door
Then I let you in

Trading your life
For my offenses
For my redemption
You carried all the blame

Breaking the curse
Of our condition
Perfection took our place

Chorus:
When only love could make a way
You gave your life in a beautiful exchange

My burden erased
My life forgiven
There is nothing that could take this love away
And my only desire and sole ambition
Is to love you just the same

Chorus:
When only love could make a way
You gave your life in a beautiful exchange
When only love could break these chains
You gave your life in a beautiful exchange

Bridge:
Holy are you God
Holy is your name
With everything I’ve got
My heart will sing how I love you

Omigosh didn't realise it's already 23rd july! Dang time pass by so fast..lol..

well I Watched eclipse..It was ok..not that great I'd say..yes there's Hot bodies, hot ppl but I still give it a 3 out of 5 rating =x overall ..sorry twilight fans hehe...=p

went for karaoke session with lynnie, Ass-me and her italian friend Tizi few days ago.One word to describe the night.. FUN!!!. yeap we had a really good time singing our hearts out.I think Tizi got a shock of her life listening to us sing hahah..we sang a few oldies and yes we sang J. Bieber's songs too lol! Karvin and JLo  came later.Finally I met the man who captured my dear friend's heart =D.lynnie, if you're reading this, I know I've said it before but nvm  I'm gonna say it again..remember NO CHANGE OF HEART!! *inside joke* hahahahhaha... ;D

Just remembered a funny incident that happened yesterday..lol..was in the car with my bro that time. We were on the way back home. A christian song was playing in the car. My bro being a smarty pants decided to show me how to 'worship' God and drive at the same time.-_-

So, he started lifting both his hands and his elbows were on the steering wheel. Then, this car that was beside us suddenly just cut our lane without any signal. My bro started honking at the car and he winds down the window and started showing middle finger to the guy lol..

me: So much for worshipping God ey..one minute you're lifting your hands and another  minute you're showing middle finger hahaha...

He started defending himself saying all christians are hypocrites.. -_- lol...wad an excuse..

bits and pieces

Let me see what have I done these past few days..hmm..manage to catch up with lynnie N waltzy..It was fun..We hung out at Bings till it closes ard 1am i think  but we didn't want to go back yet..so, we drove alll the way up to damai since we didn't know where to go lol..had a pretty interesting conversation with them in the car haha...

anyhoo can't wait for lynnie to come back from kl agn next week so we can have our baking session and sleepover! omgosh haven slept over in that woman's place for so long since form 3 I think..lol

Oh oh I know this is a lil bit  too late but SPAIN won the WC this year!!! woohooo!! haha...was up watching the match with my bro..it was a frustrating match I must say..but the feeling when spain had a goal was awesome! lol.. I love Jesus Navas's eyes!! so blue n pwettttty!!!! =D

how can you not love his gorgeous blue eyes haha..=p

Oh manage to catch up with KimE and Vana Banana too...Can't ever forget that day cos that was the day I lost my HTC phone =( ..we had dinner at sushi king then I followed Vana Banana to Jase Tea house (not sure of the name of the place) for manda's farewell thingy then I realised my phone was missing..I was fine when I was with the peeps but when I reached home,it finally dawn upon me that I actually lost my phone..was freaking pissed and annoyed at myself..oh well lesson learnt..sigh..

The Big 2 0!

Oh yes the Big 2 0..although most of us are not officially 20 yet but it was nice celebrating the big 2 0 together and it was nice catching up with everyone. Have not seen most of them for more than 2 years! It was nice seeing AudT, Drey, Winnie, Schweff, Tasha , Pee Pee n the rest..We had our dinner at Dellize. It's a nice place and apparently it's new in town. AudT, Drey, Deb and Grace made the effort to bake all of us cupcakes and they look pretty! =)

Everyone was gorgeous that night! And as usual wacky as ever lol..

L-R : There's Deb the so called 'wedding planner' , adorable Schweff , my sexy partner in crime Winnie, talented Baker/nurse AudT, me =D, the ever so wacky and lame Tasha(my new vintage shopping partner!! haha..) and cute MNoelle  =D

The other side of the table from R-L : there's KPop fan Joyce, our ever so graceful ex-head Grace, my another stunning partner in crime and driver who brings me ard alot Drey, gorgeous as always Priscilla and tall sexy Patty!

not forgetting at the end of the table...Chrislynn, and my lovable Pee Pee!!

love them to bits! only SLee (stupig girl didn't want to come =p) and VicT were missing..

                                         credits to Winnie for the photo =)                                       

After dinner most of us went to the Core as it was ladies night!! =D Sadly to say it wasn't that happening when we reached there. But oh well we had fun anyway...Dancing to wonder girls song,  J. Bieber's Baby lol n playing drinking games..yeah we enjoyed ourselves.. =) and as usual at the end of the night I was as red as a lobster and my feet hurt like hell cos I was dancing with my 4inches heels haha..My mum knew I was drinking cos once I lied down, I was totally dead asleep! lol..

Home Sweet Home =)

After 6 hours in the van, 12 hours in the plane, 2 hours in bangkok airport , additional 3 hours of waiting in KLIA and after my 2 hours flight back to kuching..finally Im back HOME!!! wheeee...totally exhausted but the feeling of finally reaching home is awesome! hehe..

Have to say I didn't enjoy my flight =( because it was the day of the month (urgh....it just had to come this week) and I didn't sleep throughout my whole flight (I was sleepy but I somehow just couldn't seem to reach that deep sleep stage)..n the headphones they gave me were partially spoilt (1 side of the headphones was only working) pftt..didn't want to bother the air stewardess for such petty thing cos they look really busy..I had my fair share of  'pissing' air stewardess off before..

I still rmbr it was few months back and I was using Emirates airline.. omgosh! I can still remember her sour looking face lol..I was sitting closest to the aisle and next to me was an arabian lady. I was helping the poor arabian lady to order water. so obviously I called out to the air stewardess nearest to me..The sour looking air stewardess was just right in front of me but her back was facing me..So I tapped lightly on her shoulders a few times asking for a cup of water..and then she went BALLISTIC!!  "WHY ARE YOU TOUCHING ME??!! DO U KNOW IT'S AGAINST THE POLICY TO TOUCH AIR STEWARDESS??! PLEASE DON'T DO THAT NEXT TIME"  

I was so taken aback and shock..In my small tone of voice (due to embarassment and everything) I said I just want water for me and the woman...She made tapping on her shoulders sound like I'm groping her butt or sumthing! WTH??!! -_-  was seriously pissed at her after that. But then I thought in her defense, probably she was harassed before..hmm..lol

So spent half of my time reading in the plane.. The movies and shows in the plane wasn't that great either.  Only watched 1 episode of Glee..Anyhoo can't wait for tomorrow's big birthday bash for all of us!!! since most of us are back n we can't celebrate our actual birthdays together, so we'll be having a big birthday party for ourselves welcoming the big 2 0!! =D wooots!

I survived! lol

wow! 5 days just pass by so quickyly..I thought I was going to die of boredom n never gonna see the daylight again =p lol..before they all left for st. petes, I thought I would be spending most of my time being a couch potato but surprisingly I did not..so proud of myself..ok maybe I did for A day =X

hmm...let me see what did I do..I went for the graduation (congrats to Tao Tao, Jo, Candy, KK...n rest of the 6th year!! so happy for them!) , went shopping with RP (the sales wasnt that great so I only bought a pair of heels and cardigan ), cooked with the old folks (I literally begged DaNu to bake me a choc cake cos I had cravings for cakes for quite some time..n she did! yipee haha..), went to the hospital to do medical check up and to dean's office to take my visa..so basically that summed up the past 5 days when ze bitches are gone..

speaking of dean's office,I was so freaking annoyed that day.. after my medical check up at the hospital, I walked along pokrov to dean's under the hot scorching sun hoping to get my visa but only to find that I didn't bring my 3 passport photos..damn it...

newayz, my beloved bitches bought me nerdy glasses (yeay!!! finally!! I own a pair of nerdy glasses) and a really cool military beret!!! love my pressies frm them!! =D thankzz BeeKy, ShaNu, JLee, Johan n Kuli boy!! 

left view of the beret..notice all those cool pins (Y)

right view of the beret

my new pair of nerdy glasses! man I look dorky haha...loving it lol

5 days of boredom

Great what to do for the next 5 days when my bitches are at St. Petersburgh leaving me all alone in NN..wanted to follow them too but then was thinking to myself I'm going there anyway when I'm in 6th year and it's better to save my money for a more worth it trip next time to AMSTERDAM with them! Luckily there's still the "old folks" RP and DaNu to keep me sane here haha.. DaNu was giving me me the pity look just now

D:  ey G, u want to eat with us or not?
me: why suddenly so nice?
D: aiyahhh..no need la..no need la

hahaa....bt yea we're cooking together tomorrow...at least there's something to look forward to besides 6th year graduation day tomorrow.. hmm..still not decided what to wear for the graduation tomorrow..

anyhoo the top agenda to do within this 5 days is obviously SHOPPING! apparently the sales are starting soon in about 2 days or so..yipee cant wait! RP will accompany me..=D

zzzz time Screwed! =(

my sleeping time is officially screwed..didnt sleep for the past 33 hours since yesterday cos was up studying for exam..not a very smart thing to do I must say cos my mind was totally blank during exam lol...wanted to sleep bt could not probably due to the stress + caffeine..but on a happy note I passed 2nd year of med sch!! woohoo..

After exam I had a choice to either go back to sleep or follow becky n the rest to the mall..Itchy me obviously chose to follow the rest to the mall..hence the additional hours of not sleeping lol..Im surprised im still able to blog despite the lethargic-ness n fatigue..crap now I seriously need to get some sleep cos Im starting to feel my body getting hot and cold flashe


Oh this song is currently on my itunes replay for so many times..was never a big fan of Joshua Radin but this is good (Y) =D

Biochem overload

Biochem overload in my brain now..so decided to crap here for awhile before I go to bed =D ..sigh can't wait for exams to be overrrrr which is in a week time!! the thought of going back to my soft comfy bed, to my huggable mum n not as huggable bro lol, and awesome msyian FOOOOOD!! oh oh n not forgetting friends! Apparently more ppl will be leaving msyia for studies this time..Lynnie n Ass-me will be going to the states, SLee will b leaving for ampuinei nei land( that was what she calls it)  lol, KimC will be goin to aus I think and a few others to somewhere ard ze world..

Oh Was browsing through my comp and found camwhore photos of me n B which we took few months ago lol..

so yeah this is what we do when we got nothing better to do with our lives haha..

Time Machine

Been wondering lately what it would be like If I were to go back to the past and change my decisions. I'm sure many would wish for the existence of a time machine but sadly there isn't 1. We can only think of the possibilities that could happen which we know in reality it wouldn't happen..

It's a typical story where A meets B. A gotten closer to B. B was the guy she ever wanted..a talented guy (A have a thing for guys who play guitars or drums =D..then agn which girl doesnt haha..) , a God-fearing man, witty guy and bla bla bla..the list can just go on.. B confessed to A..A felt that she wasnt ready.. A liked B alot but stupid A had to form a wall against B pushing B away.. A hurt B alot in so many ways.. A vividly rmbrs the night when B msged her asking her did she ever liked him and A answered a simple no..but in actual fact she did really like him alot. A didnt know why she did the things she did...A said things sometimes that are hurtful to B..

A and B went to separate places having their own lives. A realised she changed moving to a new place finding temporary happiness in things that she did. B found someone new. A was so happy for B cos the girl is a superbly nice girl and thinks that he deserved someone like her =) . A sometimes wonder till now how it would be if she actually turn back time and said yes....

Philosophy please rock my world =(

As you can see I changed my outlook of me bloggie cos the previous 1 looks dull and mundane..new outlook looks annoyingly squashed though lol..probably gonna change it after philosophy exam which is this tuesday!!! arghh..don't understand why would the uni put philosophy as an exam...nothing is going into my head. The whole afternoon spent was me staring blankly at the paper. Probably with information going in like 10 words/hour..oh God help me to love and embrace philo =(

1 day of break wouldn't hurt =)

me and anna promoting ze salad

Just got back from Charlotte's cafe along pokrov street. It's a nice place.We were there to celebrate the June babies bday among the core members. Food was not bad..I love their deserts! Their classic cheese cake and panna kotta were great. Photos to be uploaded soon. =) Bumped into SamU, Johan and Shanu there.

Anyhoo world cup has just started!! woooooh!! bt sadly there's no tv to watch here unless I feel really damn semangat to go to the guy's room n join them lol. but currently Im hook on to the screen watching Chuck. hehe..I know I should be studying but I guess one day of break wouldn't kill =D

2 down!! woots!

wheee...finally done with physiology!! 2 down 2 more to go..omgosh..thank God I made it through..was so worried that I was gonna fail. Should see how me, Becky and Johan were last night and this morning..Johan was having his gastric reflux like mad last night till this morning (a condition that he has when he gets really stress out or super hungry..poor guy lol) Becky did not sleep at all till now..we were up studying having only 1-2hours of sleep..more of these to come for the next 3 years..awesome =(

I'm currently exhausted and deprieved of sleep but Chuck kept me on my sit... sigh chuck batowski is cute..love his witty character..anyhoo better get some sleep now. My eyebags are as big as a 10 sen coin now n they're closing really badly lol..nitey nite =)

Going indie =)

Few days ago, I watched a movie called Post-graduate..It was not bad..fell in love with one of the soundtracks in the movie.. so I was running through the credits at the end of the movie to find out who was the singer and the title of that particular song. omgosh Was so ecstatic when I managed to download the song!!

The song is turn back ard by Lucy Schwartz..Love the 1st verse of the song =D

Show me the world in the shape of your looking glass.
Beautifully bold when the colors unfold.
Yes it's easy to see but its harder to find.
And I'm thinking of you and it's clear in my mind

I downloaded a few of her songs and they sounded so good..apparently she does soundtracks for a few movie and one of them was the new shrek movie..Her songs are mostly indie I think.. can check it out in You tube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w3JyqzPQHtA


Anyhooo, picture of the day! love her whole outlook..sigh so tempted to buy more floral skirts now hehe.. oh this pic is from Lookbook...hmm..probably I should start setting an acc for Tumblr instead of blogging since I'm always 'stealing' photos frm somewhere lol

A Shout Out to Mummy! =)

happy birthday mummy!!! Thank You so much for everything you've done for me n Godric.. I thank God everyday for blessing me with such a wonderful, gorgeous, strong and understanding mother. I know these past few months have not been very easy on you but you still manage to put our family together ...and you come out strong despite everything that has happened.. Thank you for raising me to be who am I today =) ..May God continue to shower His goodness n love unto you!! love you lots mum!!! ♥



mum playing with CK and Marina

In the Midst of Preparing for exams part 2

Taking a break from studying physiology so here I am..=) it's so annoying how we have such little time to study..hate the fact that classes are still on and it's already near exams..sigh I can't fully blame the system though cos I procrastinate alot too..which sucks big time..hehe..

anyhoo, today we saw pwetty pwetty rainbows...just wondered to myself how amazing God's creation is n be reminded of his promises =) credits to KK for the photo below. stole it frm his fb page hahah

In the Midst of preparing for exams part 1

I have a feeling I'll blog more during exams cos
a) the laptop is just right in front of me while I'm studying (I know it's not a very smart thing to do hehe)
b) I noticed I come online more often during exam period
c) process of de-stressing myself?

so yeah, hence the part 1...

Having russian intensive control tomorrow..yipee finally free from intensive classes. had 2 years of boring intensive classes..omgosh I'm so glad it's finally overr...having to sit through 4 hours plus of russian classes every week n on top of that another extra 3 hours of intensive russian classes, imagine how torturing is that..

anyway mummy's bday coming soon!! hmmm..wondering how will she be celebrating it..

Luncheon for the 6th years

Today we had some luncheon for the 6th years who are leaving this year at some fancy hotel..it was nice..all of us had fun taking photos, signing our so called autographs on their pressies given by pastor dave and his family.. the food was ok..had my 1st beef tongue which tasted like a normal beef meat..I dun think it was beef tongue though cos it wasnt as chewy as how ppl said it would be..but oh well all in all i had a nice time..

Im starting to like vintage clothing. Went to Bershka n saw a really nice vintage- like dress..I dont think many ppl would like it tho cos it may appear ahma-ish to them bt I don't know why I really like it alot. So I decided to buy it n oh yes it cost a bomb..my mom is so gonna kill me if she knows how much i'm paying for that dress..Sadly I fell into temptation n i bought that dress..so i wore it to the luncheon today..hehe



the dress sort of look like this..

sigh...gonna miss tau tau ,jo n candy espescially tau tau who has been such a blessing to many...she helped to build up the cf n has done so much..she's such a caring person..she helped me through my toughest time..even though i wasnt close to her, she was the 1st to lend a hand during my helpless moment. Indeed she inspired me alot to be a better person. Im forever grateful for what she has done in my life. =)

exams are coming soooooooon sighh...n I havent started a thing yet!! crap..so gonna suffer the night b4 exams as usual..time to pump myself up with lots of caffeine agn n cutting down my long hours of sleep..sighh..

anyhoo these past few days have been wondering alot bout something..it seems that everytime i start to open my heart to someone, in the end i might just get hurt..i know it's cliche but it's true. sometimes I wish I have the right answers..

Just Because

Just because I drink doesnt make me a bad person..just because I go to clubs at times to have a good time with my friends or held drinking sessions in my room occasionally doesnt mean Im sleeping ard with ppl..sigh sometimes it's so frustrating when ppl are being very judgemental about u..how shallow could one be..I thought I could leave all these behind me but I cant..or probably cos Im not in a best of mood right now.. I admit I had done things which Im not very proud of but Im only human..

If you'd know me better, you would not come up with conclusions like that ..!#$#$%$%%&*#$%%^$% anyway I feel slightly better after ranting here..

oh btw, would like to congratulate aaron kong! Im so happy for you and tau tau! Such a blissful news! Indeed u guys look cute together =)

ReUniOn =)

Since I got lots of time to spare so I decided to blog..hmm..it has been about a month since my dad went..I admit it stills overwhelms me whenever i think about it. At times I just wish I could turn back time and spend more time with him..Sometimes I just wish it was all a dream..I miss my dad so badly.. I know it's definitely harder for my mom because she has to wake up every morning to an empty bed..

Have been keeping myself busy with online vids, studies ( still gt 2 more controls to catch up sigh) , cf n practicals.. exams are comin soon n in no time i'll be back in msyia..so cant wait! =) my two besties sarah and audrey will be back by then..finally get to see both of them after so so long... so much catching up to do with them.. =D I just realised how time passes so fast..It has been almost 3 years since i left high sch and omgosh I havent seen audrey for almost 3 years! lol.. oh n not forgetting winnie who will be back at the same time too!! yipeee..indeed it's gonna be 1 hell of a reunion! =)))

was browsing thru my lappie n found this old pic of all of us during our last day of high sch..man we look so young n small lol..not saying im big now or anything but we all look damn young..lol..

A sincere note of appreciation =)

Anyway just want to say a huge big thank you to becky, shanu, tau tau, justin, darsh, rhun ping, aaron, jack, david, anna, johan, mohnika, moscow ppl, jo, micheal and Every1 who helped me thru this really tough time.. be it ur msges, wishes, condolences, prayers,visits or sending me all the way to moscow for abt 11 hrs (to n fro..u guys must be really tired) or buying/cooking food for me or booking my airplane ticket( gosh never knew it was so difficult juz to get a last minute ticket) or calling the deans to help me get my visa on a sunday or just being by my side when i feel so helpless =)..Thankz guys for all these..Im forever grateful to God for giving me frens like u guys ..

This 1 week has been tough bt I noe I wouldn't be able to make it if it wasn't for God's strength n love..I was surprised I was quite strong throughout the whole time (thankz to all ur prayers n everything =) ) ..me n my family have been surrounded by caring n loving relatives n friends these past few days n for that we're forever grateful =) ..this whole week I got to learn more bout my dad by looking thru his files n the things he kept n frm testimonies given by my dad's friends..all these just makes me miss my dad more..indeed as many had said my dad is a man of a few words n he helps ppl in his own quiet way..when we lost someone, then we will only start to appreciate them and realised how that person had really impacted your life in ways you don't know.

Thank you daddy for everything you have done for the family. Indeed you have been a responsible father and son and a really kind friend to many..Im forever grateful for God for giving you to me as my daddy. I love you lots n I know you're in heaven now with the Lord =)

The little things in life

the day my mum told me my dad has 4th stage cancer, it totally change me on how I see things now..all the little details n memory I have with my dad became so precious to me.. the time my dad brought me out to buy me a new pair of shoes, the time I was pissed at him for picking me late frm sch, the time he took me the shopping mall, the time he bought my fav biscuits...all these little memories I hold them very dearly now..

It pains me when I thought about how my dad have to go thru so much pain in chemo n radiotherapy..It pains me when my mum still hav to go to work frm morning till evening n thereafter to take care of my dad the whole night in the hospital..it pains not being able to see my dad when I'm here in Russia.. It pains me even more not being able to hear his voice cos he's too weak to talk..

How I just wish Im back home now by my family's side. Oh Lord, all I'm asking for is time and strength for me and my family...

None But Jesus =)

becky was playing this song just now on the guitar..the lyrics spoke so deeply to me..it's called None but Jesus by hillsongs united(all time fav band)..As I've just found out yesterday that my dad not only had cervical spondylosis but there was a more primary concern..his lung is filled with fluid and apparently is affecting his heart..I just broke down in tears and prayed after my mom told me about it.. the lyrics to this song was comforting in times like this =)


In the quiet, In the stillness
I know that you are God
In the secret of Your presence,
I know there I am restored.

When You call, I won't refuse
Each new day again I'll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos, in confusion
I know You're sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will

When You call, I won't delay
This is my song through all my days

All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope, All of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord forevermore =)em>

A time of testing?

Is this really a time of testing for me? Just heard a news about a friend whom I met last summer back home..he died in a car accident last night. It was indeed shocking to hear..He died at such young age. Though i don't really noe him so well, but he did put a smile on my face with his jokes and silly things he did whenever i hung out with him.. This just makes me wonder how grateful I am to God for giving me every single day. We should indeed count our blessings. =)

So much things has been going through my mind lately..my dad, the loan,guys ( not that much tho hehe) ...n Last night my mum msged me thru facebook telling me about how my dad's condition has worsen and he's currently being admitted in the hospital..my mum didn't want to tell me at 1st fearing that I wouldn't be able to concentrate in my studies but her cell grp leader insisted it was best to let me noe so me n my friends can pray for my dad. I thought my dad was fine after the operation but according to my mum the pain came back after a few days. It pains me at times cos I can't do anything about it and Im here in russia.. But Im really relieved that my mum sees it as a positive thing and she has her cell grp with her by her side =).. She constantly reminds me that God is in control of everything n I do not have to worry but just continue to trust God in this matter. My dad is not a christian and when my mon told me he agreed to join the alpha programme (a course which introduces the christian faith) and indeed I was happy cos my dad is drawing near to God..

this verse was constantly on my mind Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future........so probably this sickness my dad is having now is a way for him to draw near to God..=) and at the same time I believe it brings me n family closer to God drawing strength out of Him..=)

oh, ryan edgar =)

Ryan Edgar is my current love now <3 he sounds very gavin degraw-ish and robin thicke..funny how I got to know the existence of this singer by following Kari Jobe's twits (twitter makes me feel like a stalker sometimes lol)..she was always going on and on about this guy so I had to see who this person is..So I stumbled upon his website >>>www.ryanedgarmusic.com Omgosh he sounded so good..was trying to find his music on youtube bt he only had 1 song on youtube sadly =( ..am trying to find ways to download his songs for free too bt sadly he's not a very big artist so it's rather hard..

anyway Yesterday I had 2 cny dinners ( 1 for the whole batch n another 1 was in CF ) ..din really get to enjoy the 2nd year's batch cny dinner tho cos i had to rush for CF meeting.. but I did enjoy myself in CF..it was nice n the food was great too =) ..right after CF, I smuggled myself up to 3rd hostel cos it was Jo's bday..thank God the ohrana (guard) didn't see..lol..it was nice last nite..we had drinks and justin brought wine..lisa didn't want to join us at 1st cos that poor girl had pediatrics exam on wed but we manage to persuade her to join us for the night haha.. It was nice hanging out with the S club in 3rd hostel agn after the holidays.. definitely gonna miss Jo when she leaves this year..

Post winter holidays

love this pic taken by shanu =)

It has been a week since I got back from my winter holidays in Turkey..am still missing that place..missing the people, the food, the shopping, the night life , EFES beer (OMGOSH! best beer i've tried so far!) oh and not forgetting Lilu ( a cute doggie in 1 of the hostels I was staying) ..hmm..definitely miss the attention the turkish guys are giving too ;p lol ...you can't find all these things in sad and dull Russia..coming back to Russia looking at the sour faces of ppl here and looking at you like you're some kind of terrorist makes you feel urgh "what am I doing in russia??" ...bt nevertheless this place somehow have a special place in my heart ( probably I don't mean it now bt I know I will when I leave this place after my studies hehe..)

anyway back to my turkey trip....hmm..met many new friends there from diff countries..it's nice staying in hostels cos then u get to meet people frm all ard the world ( and learn about the existence of countries u never heard like alstonia! lol..ok probably you've heard of it but it was new to me..and I blame it on the education in Msyia for not teaching us geography of the world =p)

all in all Turkey was AWESOME! So far it's the best trip i've been to in europe..I definitely wouldn't mind to go back there 1 day with my anak, cucu and cicit lol..

bloggie, u're alive again! =)

Funny how I opened a blogspot account 2 years back because I was bored and was looking through other people's blogs and was thinking to myself ' hey I want to write like that too' ..and so I penned down my 1st ever post enthusiastically basically talking about me being a banana (a chinese person who doesn't speak mandrin) and stuff like that..lol..(i've deleted the post =p) and guess what that was sort of my 1st and last post..

So I decided to revive my so called blog because I figured it would be nice to read and laugh at your own postings 5 or 10 years down the road.. but i have a feeling my blog will somehow die within this year lol due to my laziness..oh well we'll see how it goes =D