A sincere note of appreciation =)

Anyway just want to say a huge big thank you to becky, shanu, tau tau, justin, darsh, rhun ping, aaron, jack, david, anna, johan, mohnika, moscow ppl, jo, micheal and Every1 who helped me thru this really tough time.. be it ur msges, wishes, condolences, prayers,visits or sending me all the way to moscow for abt 11 hrs (to n fro..u guys must be really tired) or buying/cooking food for me or booking my airplane ticket( gosh never knew it was so difficult juz to get a last minute ticket) or calling the deans to help me get my visa on a sunday or just being by my side when i feel so helpless =)..Thankz guys for all these..Im forever grateful to God for giving me frens like u guys ..

This 1 week has been tough bt I noe I wouldn't be able to make it if it wasn't for God's strength n love..I was surprised I was quite strong throughout the whole time (thankz to all ur prayers n everything =) ) ..me n my family have been surrounded by caring n loving relatives n friends these past few days n for that we're forever grateful =) ..this whole week I got to learn more bout my dad by looking thru his files n the things he kept n frm testimonies given by my dad's friends..all these just makes me miss my dad more..indeed as many had said my dad is a man of a few words n he helps ppl in his own quiet way..when we lost someone, then we will only start to appreciate them and realised how that person had really impacted your life in ways you don't know.

Thank you daddy for everything you have done for the family. Indeed you have been a responsible father and son and a really kind friend to many..Im forever grateful for God for giving you to me as my daddy. I love you lots n I know you're in heaven now with the Lord =)

The little things in life

the day my mum told me my dad has 4th stage cancer, it totally change me on how I see things now..all the little details n memory I have with my dad became so precious to me.. the time my dad brought me out to buy me a new pair of shoes, the time I was pissed at him for picking me late frm sch, the time he took me the shopping mall, the time he bought my fav biscuits...all these little memories I hold them very dearly now..

It pains me when I thought about how my dad have to go thru so much pain in chemo n radiotherapy..It pains me when my mum still hav to go to work frm morning till evening n thereafter to take care of my dad the whole night in the hospital..it pains not being able to see my dad when I'm here in Russia.. It pains me even more not being able to hear his voice cos he's too weak to talk..

How I just wish Im back home now by my family's side. Oh Lord, all I'm asking for is time and strength for me and my family...

None But Jesus =)

becky was playing this song just now on the guitar..the lyrics spoke so deeply to me..it's called None but Jesus by hillsongs united(all time fav band)..As I've just found out yesterday that my dad not only had cervical spondylosis but there was a more primary concern..his lung is filled with fluid and apparently is affecting his heart..I just broke down in tears and prayed after my mom told me about it.. the lyrics to this song was comforting in times like this =)


In the quiet, In the stillness
I know that you are God
In the secret of Your presence,
I know there I am restored.

When You call, I won't refuse
Each new day again I'll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos, in confusion
I know You're sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will

When You call, I won't delay
This is my song through all my days

All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope, All of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord forevermore =)em>

A time of testing?

Is this really a time of testing for me? Just heard a news about a friend whom I met last summer back home..he died in a car accident last night. It was indeed shocking to hear..He died at such young age. Though i don't really noe him so well, but he did put a smile on my face with his jokes and silly things he did whenever i hung out with him.. This just makes me wonder how grateful I am to God for giving me every single day. We should indeed count our blessings. =)

So much things has been going through my mind lately..my dad, the loan,guys ( not that much tho hehe) ...n Last night my mum msged me thru facebook telling me about how my dad's condition has worsen and he's currently being admitted in the hospital..my mum didn't want to tell me at 1st fearing that I wouldn't be able to concentrate in my studies but her cell grp leader insisted it was best to let me noe so me n my friends can pray for my dad. I thought my dad was fine after the operation but according to my mum the pain came back after a few days. It pains me at times cos I can't do anything about it and Im here in russia.. But Im really relieved that my mum sees it as a positive thing and she has her cell grp with her by her side =).. She constantly reminds me that God is in control of everything n I do not have to worry but just continue to trust God in this matter. My dad is not a christian and when my mon told me he agreed to join the alpha programme (a course which introduces the christian faith) and indeed I was happy cos my dad is drawing near to God..

this verse was constantly on my mind Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future........so probably this sickness my dad is having now is a way for him to draw near to God..=) and at the same time I believe it brings me n family closer to God drawing strength out of Him..=)

oh, ryan edgar =)

Ryan Edgar is my current love now <3 he sounds very gavin degraw-ish and robin thicke..funny how I got to know the existence of this singer by following Kari Jobe's twits (twitter makes me feel like a stalker sometimes lol)..she was always going on and on about this guy so I had to see who this person is..So I stumbled upon his website >>>www.ryanedgarmusic.com Omgosh he sounded so good..was trying to find his music on youtube bt he only had 1 song on youtube sadly =( ..am trying to find ways to download his songs for free too bt sadly he's not a very big artist so it's rather hard..

anyway Yesterday I had 2 cny dinners ( 1 for the whole batch n another 1 was in CF ) ..din really get to enjoy the 2nd year's batch cny dinner tho cos i had to rush for CF meeting.. but I did enjoy myself in CF..it was nice n the food was great too =) ..right after CF, I smuggled myself up to 3rd hostel cos it was Jo's bday..thank God the ohrana (guard) didn't see..lol..it was nice last nite..we had drinks and justin brought wine..lisa didn't want to join us at 1st cos that poor girl had pediatrics exam on wed but we manage to persuade her to join us for the night haha.. It was nice hanging out with the S club in 3rd hostel agn after the holidays.. definitely gonna miss Jo when she leaves this year..

Post winter holidays

love this pic taken by shanu =)

It has been a week since I got back from my winter holidays in Turkey..am still missing that place..missing the people, the food, the shopping, the night life , EFES beer (OMGOSH! best beer i've tried so far!) oh and not forgetting Lilu ( a cute doggie in 1 of the hostels I was staying) ..hmm..definitely miss the attention the turkish guys are giving too ;p lol ...you can't find all these things in sad and dull Russia..coming back to Russia looking at the sour faces of ppl here and looking at you like you're some kind of terrorist makes you feel urgh "what am I doing in russia??" ...bt nevertheless this place somehow have a special place in my heart ( probably I don't mean it now bt I know I will when I leave this place after my studies hehe..)

anyway back to my turkey trip....hmm..met many new friends there from diff countries..it's nice staying in hostels cos then u get to meet people frm all ard the world ( and learn about the existence of countries u never heard like alstonia! lol..ok probably you've heard of it but it was new to me..and I blame it on the education in Msyia for not teaching us geography of the world =p)

all in all Turkey was AWESOME! So far it's the best trip i've been to in europe..I definitely wouldn't mind to go back there 1 day with my anak, cucu and cicit lol..

bloggie, u're alive again! =)

Funny how I opened a blogspot account 2 years back because I was bored and was looking through other people's blogs and was thinking to myself ' hey I want to write like that too' ..and so I penned down my 1st ever post enthusiastically basically talking about me being a banana (a chinese person who doesn't speak mandrin) and stuff like that..lol..(i've deleted the post =p) and guess what that was sort of my 1st and last post..

So I decided to revive my so called blog because I figured it would be nice to read and laugh at your own postings 5 or 10 years down the road.. but i have a feeling my blog will somehow die within this year lol due to my laziness..oh well we'll see how it goes =D